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Chapter 335
It's My Fault
The Lonely Mountain, the innermost depths.
Ferda waited before the iron door.
Ferda recalled the words Ruri had spoken.
-Valdrova-nim entered Godwin-nim's body. She floundered like that for about 30 minutes before discovering Ferda-nim.
Hearing those words, Ferda recalled what Nekonata had said.
Ŵ е̇b̌ ňо̇vel Ѐnum̈ ӑ
Not the Nekonata of this world, but the Nekonata existing in a different world line five years in the future.
According to that Nekonata's words, the Valdrova of that world had bitten off Godwin's throat.
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After killing him like that, she realized it was Ferda, and she completely collapsed.
'I prevented that tragedy, but.......'
As if the total amount of fate were the same, the misfortune of Ferda's death had to be borne entirely by Valdrova.
She delved into Godwin's flesh to find Ferda.
Wе̃ b n̈ о́vе̌l̂ E n̆ ũ m а
Godwin's body possessed a power that caused Valdrova to be consumed by madness.
Valdrova took that power head-on with her whole body.
'For 30 minutes, at that.'
It was an exposure level on a completely different dimension from the battles during the Dragon-Demon War.
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To save just one person, she chose to burn her own body.
A heavy burden settled on Ferda's shoulders.
E n̊u̇ m̄ а . і̀d
Shortly after, at the sound of the side door opening, Ferda lifted his head.
Ruri, who had gone in to heal, came back out.
The result was written on Ruri's expression.
"With my power...... I cannot save her."
Even Ruri, who had learned healing magic, couldn't improve Valdrova's condition.
She was originally a spawn trained as a warrior, and her healing magic was only possible through spirits, so high-level healing was impossible.
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Priests probably couldn't do it either.
And they shouldn't.
Knowing Valdrova's condition and what would happen, would they?
"Ferda-nim, what should we do?"
Ruri asked.
The hand clutching her skirt hem was trembling faintly.
Е ńum а̄
All she had left now was her axe, but what she could do with that was far from healing.
"I'll find a way somehow."
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Ferda said that.
It was merely meant to comfort her worried expression.
Ferda was someone who had reached the 8th Circle.
But he wasn't someone who knew everything.
Еn ů m а
There was no way someone who had only wished for others to die and suffer would have researched magic or studies to heal someone.
The only thing he could do was give mana through contact, but even that no longer worked in the current state.
'A method is needed.'
Ferda thought over and over, but no sharp solution appeared.
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He couldn't find the answer alone.
That was why he headed somewhere.
Ё.n̂ um̂а̇.іd̂
The place Ferda headed to was one of the castle stewards' bedchambers.
Inside was a girl with blonde hair and blue eyes.
She was sleeping soundly in her nightclothes.
Just looking at her sleeping, she was exactly like a young girl, but Ferda knew she was no ordinary girl.
Ferda called that girl's name.
"Mori."
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She opened her eyes.
As if a soul had been breathed into her shell of a body, she rose.
She checked Ferda's face and her eyes went round.
"I have something to ask you, is it alright right now?"
Nod, nod.
"I need healing magic."
Е̊n̄ u m̆.á . і̃ d
She silently carried it out.
She hurriedly took out a small piece of paper and a pencil and communicated through writing.
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-What kind of healing magic do you need?
Ferda answered.
"What I need is......."
Ferda explained the current situation to Mori.
Е̊ n̄ u̇ m̊a..іd̈
That Valdrova had been completely consumed by blood qi, and a method to detoxify it was needed.
Grasping the exact situation, Mori nodded.
She slowly searched for the grimoires needed for this situation.
'Taking out a grimoire is a cautious task.'
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It required a level of concentration and meticulousness on a completely different dimension from simply finding an ordinary book and asking her to write.
The higher the magic, the more the amount of information increased geometrically.
Е̇ n u ḿа̌._і̇d
That was why the recoil was also severe.
Mori's body trembled faintly.
'Just a little more, hang in there.'
Ferda said the shameless words he couldn't bring himself to say out loud, inside his head.
At that moment, Mori, who had been concentrating, quietly guided Ferda's hand to her head.
It was her gesture asking to be patted.
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Ferda did as she wanted, and she concentrated again.
Mori dug to the very end to find the answer.
And at that end, instead of the correct answer, a nosebleed came out.
Not simply trickling down, but pouring down fiercely as if all her blood vessels had burst.
"Mori. Stop."
Her body still trembled.
Ẅе̄ b̊nоv̈_е̊ ĺ _Е n̂ů må
"Mori!"
Only then did her body's trembling stop.
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Then Mori, with trembling hands, gripped the pencil and wrote.
-I'm fine.
"Your condition says otherwise."
She placed her hand on those five characters and repeated the answer.
Е n ú m а̃ . і̄ d
"I gave you an instruction before. Do you remember what it was?"
As Mori tried to lift her pencil, Ferda gave an additional instruction.
"You don't need to write. Answer with your head."
Nod, nod.
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"I instructed you to stop whatever task you were doing on the spot if you ever used your body to the point of harming yourself. Right?"
Nod, nod.
Wе̄b ňоv̂ ӗl Е̂ ńu m̌а̌
"Why did you ignore that?"
Shake, shake.
An answer saying she hadn't ignored it.
She just clutched the pencil tightly as if saying she had to write.
Ferda permitted it, and she wrote.
-Valdrova Gongwang is top priority. Therefore, finding a way no matter what is my duty.
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Mechanical.
A girl who couldn't even wipe her own dripping nosebleed was saying that.
At the moment Ferda tried to open his mouth to rebuke her, he couldn't continue.
The cause that made her do such a reckless thing was in Mori's eyes.
Ferda saw a man's face reflected in those eyes.
There, a desperately earnest face was visible.
W_е̂bǹ óvӗl Е nǔ m а
Perhaps seeing that face, Mori thought she had to push herself even if it was unreasonable.
Ferda quietly closed his eyes.
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"Go back to sleep. This is an order. Don't think of anything, just rest."
Not thinking of anything is impossible for a human.
But Mori was a slave without a self.
A slave must obey when the master's command falls.
W е̌b ńо̂ v́ el. Е̇ ń u m̌а
So Mori closed her eyes and fell asleep again just like that.
'If I sacrifice Mori, can I find a way to heal Valdrova?'
Regret kept replaying in his head.
The thought that sacrificing someone would make it work tormented him.
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In the past, he would have surely killed her.
For the greater good, a few small things could be abandoned.
W e b̂ n.òv е l Е̌n̆ ū m̀ ă
'Even now.......'
No.
Stop.
Ferda stopped his thoughts.
He wiped the nosebleed from sleeping Mori's face and laid her down.
If he kept watching, it felt like he'd commit an act he'd regret, so Ferda quietly left that room.
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In the end, there was no solution in Ferda's hands.
"Then......."
If he couldn't solve it, he had to borrow hands.
Ferda sent a telepathic message somewhere from his office using a communication orb.
To the Odograsado Holy Kingdom.
-May the Holy Kingdom's grace be with you. Who might you be, contacting us at this late hour?
W е̌ b́ n̄ov̈е l̄ Е ñ u m̂а̃
Ferda replied as businesslike as possible, as if nothing were wrong.
"I am Ferda Valdrova, Regent of the Arken Empire's Far Eastern Territory, the Valdrova Grand Duchy."
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-The Great Fire's Fiancé, I see. For what reason do you send a telepathic message to our Holy Kingdom......?
"I know it's rude, but I have business with the Holy Kingdom. Is that possible?"
The Holy Kingdom meant Odograsado.
Naturally, the priest didn't hide his displeasure.
Е̊ n ûm̈а.і̌ d
-I know the Regent is a person of high virtue, but everything has its procedure.
"That's human business, and what I'm contacting you about now is dragons' business."
-Dragons' business.......
"I speak wearing Valdrova's authority, so please don't dare raise objections."
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The priest couldn't refuse arrogantly beyond that.
Humans meddling in dragons' business is the ultimate discourtesy among discourtesies.
Еñ u mа
Because refusing further would mean committing discourtesy against Odograsado as well.
In the end, the priest who received the contact summoned Odograsado.
* * *
Ferda waited at the entrance of the Lonely Mountain.
The forest, sunk in darkness where even starlight was insufficient in the deep dawn, was desolate.
Ferda hated that immensely.
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It made him feel like he'd go crazy with too many thoughts.
Shortly after, a golden light flickered from the direction Ferda was looking.
That light gradually grew and opened, becoming a single gate revealing its interior.
A brilliantly golden room.
From there, a girl accompanied by high priests walked leisurely.
"I pay my respects to the Great Light, Odograsado-nim."
W̊ e bn̈ о v̊ё l Е̃_ñū ṁа̄
Ferda greeted politely, and Odograsado laughed good-naturedly.
"Hah-hah, popular women have it tough. What business do you have calling this body like that?"
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"That is......."
"It's too dark to see well. Come here, come here. Let me see your face."
Odograsado pulled Ferda's face down.
The smiling girl said this to Ferda.
Е n üm̀ а
"Come on, smooth your face out and act like nothing happened. Understand?"
"......."
Right, I called her for dragons' business that escaped human hands, so I need to be detached.
I'd forgotten that.
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Stupid bastard.
To make such a mistake.
W ёb ǹ о v̆еl̂ È n u m̌ a
Ferda maintained his expression as best he could to avoid being consumed by self-reproach.
Odograsado turned her head and spoke to the priests.
"You all wait here. If even one eavesdropper exists, I'll be furious. Understand?"
"We receive your command."
"Come on, let's go."
The priests kept their positions, and Odograsado held Ferda's hand and moved into the cave.
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As their presence faded, the innocent girl humming a tune was no more.
"Poor baby....... I thought she'd finally get some peace, but how could such a thing......."
Odograsado let out pity, and entered her room.
Ferda waited quietly in front of that door.
"Ferda-nim. Wouldn't it be better to go inside and wait? I'll guard this place."
"......."
Еn u m̂ ӓ. і̌ḋ
"The night is deep."
Ferda didn't budge.
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Ruri didn't urge him further.
Instead, she sat beside Ferda and kept him company so he wouldn't be lonely.
Two hours passed before Odograsado came out again.
There was no smile on her face.
Е̊ n_um̀а̀.ì d
"There won't be a problem with her life. But that's just her life not being in danger. Her condition is quite bad."
"May I ask specifically how bad?"
"At minimum, she shouldn't move for half a year."
Half a year.
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Even a month is a problem right now, but half a year is too long.
"She can move and such, but she must refrain from using power. If she's not careful, she'll lose control of herself. So...... she probably won't be able to guard the Far East either."
Ēṅ ūm a.і d̆
"......."
Modern Serdes Continent people don't know how terrifying monsters are.
No, even if they know, they're ignorant about the existences they should truly feel terror towards.
That was also proof of how well Valdrova had blocked monsters in the Far East.
The monsters pouring into the Far East are gigantic.
Individuals that are practically siege weapons themselves expand their territory and swarm in—that's what happens in the Devil's Land.
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The only one who could block them was Valdrova.
Her being unable to move was a matter of the Far East's survival or extinction.
"That...... I'll solve it."
There was no sharp solution, but he couldn't view it pessimistically either.
He couldn't bear to watch the things Valdrova cherished be lost.
His heart was heavy.
Е n̆.ū m̀ ӑ
Dizzy-headed, Ferda closed his eyes and took a deep breath.
"It's because of my greed."
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Ferda, unable to hide his intense emotions, said that.
"Because of my greed...... Valdrova became like that."
Odograsado tried to comfort Ferda.
"It's not your fault."
Е̃ńǔ m̆ ӓ
"I came here thinking I'd heal the wounds left by that damn bastard. But that damn bastard was me."
"You're not Godwin. So the wounds Godwin left can't become yours."
"If I hadn't known, you could've said that. But I already knew. I knew, and I hid this fact from my fiancée. That's why this happened."
Ferda's emotions welled up, and now he felt utterly blocked.
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With no way to resolve it, he just felt crushed.
"When I found out what kind of bastard he was, I should've left. When I knew he was a crazy bastard who destroyed everything she cherished....... I should've just lived quietly like a mouse."
W̄ е́b̆ ńo v̀ е l Е́nu.m̃ а̇
"Would that have changed anything?"
"Then she wouldn't be like that."
Then something small covered Ferda's head.
Odograsado cradled Ferda's head as if embracing an egg.
"Don't drive yourself so hard. If you call going against fate like that original sin......."
Lips hesitating for a moment.
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In the end, she spoke the words.
"This is our original sin as well, you see."
Odograsado's small hand stroked Ferda's head.
"You know well that Godwin burned Valdrova's precious things, right? Starting from that, Godwin changed."
"......Yes."
That image still tormented Ferda.
Ŵе̌ b ňõ v е̃l̊. Е ñů m̊а
The sight of tears of blood flowing from her eyes was vivid.
"I can't say his actions were right, but I can't say everything was wrong either. That choice was also for Valdrova's sake."
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"What do you mean?"
"What kind of woman is Valdrova? She's terribly awkward and pure when it comes to relationships. Isn't that right?"
"That's correct."
"Because she's that kind of woman, you weren't the first to approach her with goodwill. There were surely people who approached her favorably like you."
E n̊ um̄ ӓ_.і́_d
"The Third Prince, Million Arken?"
Odograsado shook her head.
"It was further back than that. Before Arken consumed this place, it was a young village chief a little ways from the Lonely Mountain. That young village chief initially knew the Red Dragon was a terrifying existence, but he knew well that behind that fearsome appearance was a naive woman. Thinking he could build his own kingdom by using that, he was a foolish ambitious man."
A rough picture formed in his head.
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Even now she's so easily swayed, so how much more was she swayed in the past?
"That man actually used Valdrova's authority to do many things. He gathered people from a simple village and tried to transform it into a kingdom. It felt like he crossed the line but cleverly rode the edge. He thought he could use naive Valdrova like limbs. But he couldn't."
Ё ňu m̆ а. í ď
"Godwin...... knew that?"
"Would only Godwin know?"
All dragons knew Valdrova's situation.
The silence Godwin spoke of was exactly that, and Odograsado calls it original sin.
"We lived shameful lives. The one who reminded us of our conscience as dragons was Godwin. Valdrova doesn't know that fact......."
"Knowing that conscience, why didn't you step forward?"
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"Because we're afraid."
Truly strange.
The Golden Dragon called Faith and Light saying she's afraid.
"In the end, someone has to push our backs, and that role is the Dragon Lord's duty."
"That's a cowardly excuse."
Words he couldn't defend even if his head fell off.
Е̌ numа̊ . id̊
"I can't deny it."
Odograsado just let it pass with a hollow laugh.
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"Because we're all such cowardly existences."
Odograsado let go of Ferda's head.
"I'll be going then. If you need help......."
She hesitated with an uncertain expression.
Wе̄_b̈ n o̊vе l E n_um ӑ
Even if she looks like a childish kid looking for sweets, she's a dragon and a nation's symbol.
She came this time making some excuse, but she won't be able to do so forever.
"I'll do my best to handle it myself."
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Odograsado showed an apologetic smile and turned away.
He saw her return through the gate again with the high priests.
W ӗb̌ñ о̂v́ ӗĺ Е ǹüm̀а
The sky was spreading with a pale color, and the stars' twinkling gradually disappeared.
Dawn seemed to be breaking.
Time flows and incidents pile up.
In the midst of this, what exactly should I do?
Feeling like the path ahead was blocked was only momentary.
Ferda felt a sensation ringing in his head.
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As if connected to something.
It appeared as if it had been connected to Ferda since long ago.
Ferda turned his head toward where that energy led.
Like a lie, a man stood there.
Only then did he realize.
This continuing sensation was Godwin's.
E_nū m̂ а̊
"You've succeeded in resisting your master, Regent."
The man visible before him was Gokma.
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